I just saw his face on Facebook and it hit me like a ton of bricks. I was at uni. I was there and he was there.

I saw people in science graduation gear and I left so he wouldn't have to see me, in case it was his graduation this time (did the same thing the other day).

We were in the same place at the same  time but I left so we wouldn't bump into each other.

I had really wanted to be there for that. I had to leave so I wouldn't be.

I wanted to be there and I left for him.

I just want to cry and cry. I miss my friend.  I miss him more than I can put into words. But I don't want to force my way into his life. It's his day; I thought it may have been so I left.

But I wish I hadn't :(