Made a couple of friends recently, reconnected with a couple too.

Spent yesterday arvo with Jay, Sarah and Stanley. Sarah and I went back to Jay's when the tav closed for a matrix marathon.

I was really grateful for the company and the fun.

Then Sarah went home. I ended up crashing because it was half 3 before the trilogy was done.

I was having a great time, we chatted, ate, bagged out the matrix... Then he held my hand while we were sitting on the couch.

I pulled away and he didn't try again.

I just wish people would just be happy to hang out.
I wish I didn't have to feel constantly on my guard.
I wish I didn't have to say no, because I wish nobody was asking the question.

Is it ironic that I'm still turning people down left right and centre, but can't even get somebody I actually want to spend time with to talk to me?

I just want a mate.

Saw Phil and Caris this arvo. So good to see them! Gotta catch up again soon :)