Sunday, 14 September 2014

Issues don't resolve themselves, but not all issues are ones I have the power to resolve.

I had to accept a while ago now that the ball wasn't in my court.

All I can do is be patient and hope we reach a point where we can resolve this between us and enjoy each others company.

And I will be patient even though I find it difficult sometimes.

I will wait for as long as it takes.

I just hope it doesn't take too long.

There will be teething problems but they'll only ever be overcome by talking and spending time.
That's partially why I was looking forward to the concert - the object of interest is something divorced entirely from the people involved in it. No conversation, no awkward, both people focusing on something other than each other. In each others presence, but paying attention to something else.

There'll be something else another time if he doesn't change his mind. It's two weeks away. I don't expect he will.
I was very surprised when he said he was still interested in coming after our last meeting. I did suspect it might change.

I even said, please don't say yes and then tack "I think" on the end because all it says to me is no. Good to see my spidey senses are still on the money.

There'll be something else, another time.

I'm disappointed but I'm not surprised.
I don't think this will help but it's not up to me.
I want to talk, he doesn't. We can't both get what we want. It isn't possible.

So I'll wait. And in the meantime I'll carry on with all the other stuff going on and we'll see what happens.

He knows where I am and that I want to pursue the friendship.
There's nothing more for me to do.

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