Ouch

Well that hurt.
That hurts.

I know part of this whole deal is that I kind of have to be cool and detached and I'm not really allowed to complain or anything but that stings.

I thought the point was that no matter what, we were friends first and foremost and we may or may not have sex also, IN ADDITION to that friendship.

I didn't expect that a gig we'd already agreed to go to would be turned down because "it might be awkward... because we're broken up". Gee, in case I'd forgotten when I reminded you?
My money is that it's not as awkward as boning your ex but hey, that's different.

Is it only okay for us to see each other behind closed doors or when it's conveniently on the way to or from home or work?
Is my friendship limited to having sex and giving a lift home?

Is that all I am?
Free sex and chauffeur on the side?
And the friendship is just sort of an addendum to that?

It was excuse after excuse.
Haven't heard the music... It's a bit awkward... It's so far into the future (Oh wait, is THAT the time!?)... Should be fine, I think.

I'm stung that you can invite yourself around for the night but the thought of organising to go out in public is too much.
Am I that embarrassing that you don't want to be seen with me?

You've been distant and standoffish the last couple days. I've noticed.

If you don't want to talk to me, I'd much rather you just frigging said so.
If you don't want to see me, man up and tell me that. Face to face is ideal but I'll accept a call.

Why is having sex and having "our" shows to watch and going out for lunch or a movie spontaneously okay, but buying tickets "might be awkward"?

No need to remind me we've broken up. I know.

Part of being friends is making plans and doing things though. Why is seeing me for hours at a time and sleeping next to me fine but going out isn't?
Is that all I am? Cheap lay?

I know I'm not allowed to feel anything any more, and I know I'm not allowed to complain. I can't say any of these things if I want to keep seeing you because that's against the rules. Gotta be cool.

But that was douchey and it makes me feel like dirt.
Friends get to go out too, right?

I didn't cut you out of my life. I still invite you to things with my friends because I count you as one of them. I don't expect the same from you but I didn't expect a total stratification either.

I'm overreacting. This is one thing. We go out to the movies and lunch about once a week. But it's always just us and always spontaneous. I always fit in with your plans. We don't make plans, we fill in time.
What's wrong with group stuff?

What's wrong with planning to go somewhere?
Are you worried I'll view it as a date? Because when you consider that we've been sleeping together it kinda seems like the concert should be the least of your worries, you know?

I know that none of this was intentional. But it was your first reaction and therefore an honest one.

I know I'm not allowed to say anything, but that hurts. It cuts me to the bone.

I'll get over it, I know it wasn't intentional. But I am starting to wonder where exactly I stand in the friendship food chain.