okay so I was over the moon. Now I'm super conflicted.

This is exactly why I wanted to talk face to face. This facebook shite is confusing.

Looks like no relationship. But still mad sex drive? blughhh
So all the physical stuff is in, but the emotional is out? Or maybe we just didn't want open that can of worms over facebook directly after saying it was time to go to bed.

And we don't get to talk about that properly? I just get to sit with it all night.

I notice it was that he "likes" me a lot. Emotional distance there already. Could be conscious method of self-preservation, could be an attempt to stay away from emotive language, could be that actually feelings were overstated to begin with.
Could be me reading too much into something I didn't want to know yet.

I wanted this to be face to face because it wasn't before. I'm happy to talk but serious stuff... it has to wait until it can be discussed properly. Not behind a keyboard because it's easier. Specially not before bedtime.

None of this is easy.

People fight. It doesn't have to be the end of the world. And if it is, then I want to hear it directly, not somewhere that one of us can log off and then pretend like the other person isn't there any more.

I am happy. But I'm also conflicted and I just didn't want to talk about that end of things until we got to see each other. It's done now though.

And it's difficult. There's no right way to be doing this. It's hard for me and I'm sure that's mutual.
But enough has been misinterpreted and taken the wrong way and done with distance and cold technological precision. You can't log off from a human conversation and that's as it should be. The rest can be discussed properly, or not at all.

Okay Ash now shut up and go to bed.
Stop stressing, it's done now.
You'll see him soon and get it all worked out, one way or another you'll know where you stand and you can go from there.