Sigh

I just want the best.

I just want to do something.

That's not for me to do.

I show I care by doing things. That's part of what I do. I don't like that I can't.

But it's not for me. Not any more.

I can't find anyone who's free tonight, not now. I might go to my mum's.

I don't want to be alone here right now.

I don't want to be in my head by myself.

I want to be good for something.
I want to feel better by making someone else feel better somehow.

This last couple days have been hard.

I can't sleep.
I can't eat.
I can't concentrate.

Need some company but I told everyone I was probably busy.

I'm okay, I've just been down. I'm not sure I'm down about anything in particular. Just been feeling weird.

I need to talk to someone.

I don't like feeling afraid of shadows.

I just want to forget by being something useful for somebody.

But nobody needs me. I try and be good. I try and be my best. I try and help where I can.
But there's nobody to help and nowhere to go.
Stuck in my head and these dreams don't leave me alone even when I'm awake.

I just want someone to talk to but the friend I talked to has gotten weird. It makes my skin crawl.
Everybody is busy.

I get by but I look forward to relief.