You know, I don't for a second think this is deliberate.
I've been as gracious as I can be and I hope I've done okay.
I hope I've conducted myself okay.
I hope I haven't been pushy or sulky.

It's just hard that it has been so good, as weird as that is.

I'll get used to it in time.

For the minute it's just difficult to wrap my brain around.

I really appreciate that we've talked about this.

I'm trying really hard to separate how I feel about this from being stressy about the housing thing and the scouting thing.
And I think I'm doing okay.

I am doing okay.

It's confusing and I miss him but I understand and I'm okay.

I just hope I've been okay in the way I've acted.
I hope I haven't done anything wrong.

Everything is confusing and I know that's going to be the case for a little while until everything settles down.

I miss talking though. Like properly talking. It'd be nice to see him sometime soon, in whatever capacity.

Bluh.

I can't wait to be off work next week. Maybe then :)